I enjoy the richness of the colors, the angles and the strong contrast between fore and background. The flower is much paler in the garden than it is in my shot.
Your final question is the hardest question. I certainly don't see the flower in this way in the garden. I see it this way in my imagination. The challenge is to find ways to create in pp what I see in my head. I am trying to find a way to create a light and soft vision in the days to come.
Over the last few years I have shot many of these flowers and now I find it a good flower for experimenting with.